Wednesday, September 18, 2019

Story Time


So 4-5 years after I moved into my home, I had a friend that I met in school. She came home with me one evening after class and coffee to study. I don’t remember what time, but it was dark, so after 9 p.m. As we walked onto my porch, I was in front of her trying to find my key and she began to kind of lean against my back and telling me to “hurry up”, repeatedly. I finally found the key, got it in the lock, right as she pushed me inside. Of course I was kinda like "wtf?", and she said, “there are two teenagers and an old man on your porch, I could see the old man’s hair”. 

My house has a wide front porch and two evergreen-type (I don’t know what they are exactly) trees on either side of the steps. You can’t see my entire porch from the street, just the path up the steps and to the door. At this time I was working the 3-11p.m. shift at work and every night when I would come home I’d sit in my car and have to work up the nerve to walk up because I was *sure* there was someone on my porch. In fact, I was SO sure there was someone there, that when I got to my door and nobody was I was more surprised that nobody was there than I would have been if there had been. That was likely 9-10 years ago or so and I still feel this way, only not as strongly. My back porch, though.. 

I have an enclosed back porch where my water heater, washer & dryer are, and it has windows across the back and the left side (I never put up curtains). I can go in my back yard at night without concerns, but I *can’t* leave the door open from my back porch to my kitchen, or my back door open. Whatever was on my front porch, is in my back yard. I can feel it looking in when I’m doing laundry. Not so much during the day, but definitely at night. I feel something when I go outside back there at night, but it’s not ominous, it just “is”, but when I’m inside it’s ominous. That’s weird to me, but I don’t know how to explain it. The tree is right outside these windows.

My best friend (not the above mentioned girl) of 12 years told me a few years ago, out of nowhere, that “I’ve always hated your porch. It always gives me the creeps.” It should be noted that this girl is religious (structured religion) and does not believe as I do.

There was a stray cat that I fed for about 9 months but couldn’t catch. Gorgeous brindle kitty that I named Ginger. Ginger turned out to be FIV+ and went to a good home in Nebraska after I finally caught her. And I caught her because…

A black cat (I don’t believe black cats are more evil than any other cats, this cat just happened to be black) showed up one day and for days when I’d come home from work he’d be sitting on my porch howling. Howling this god awful whining noise that wasn’t like I’ve heard cat fights or cats in heat, unlike anything I’ve heard again to this day. I never saw him during the day, only at night. My mom was actually afraid to come to my house because she was scared of him guarding the porch. One night I came home and he was out there, howling, and as I got to my porch Ginger ran up and planted herself between me and the door, with me between her and Devil Cat. She was clearly scared of him. I picked up a rake on my porch, not to hit him with because I hope I never have to hurt an animal, but to keep him at a distance. The Devil Cat began half-circling me, back and forth in front of me, hissing. I don’t scare easily, but this cat.. I couldn’t let Ginger in because I have dogs. So I went inside and grabbed a crate, threw some food in it, went back out and planted it between Ginger and Devil Cat and as she crept in to eat I shoved her furry little ass in the crate. (Another side note, I tried to put Ginger in a crate before and she tore my arms up.) I never saw Devil Cat again. 

Later, and this isn’t particularly weird, but I also had a steel gray Mama kitty attempt to give birth on my porch. The first baby was breach. (Another side note: Mama had hung around for awhile, obviously pregnant, and I came home to her laying in the middle of my sidewalk. I believe she was waiting for me, because she needed help. I couldn’t get the dead baby out. I called my vet at 1:30 in the morning, insisted he come in - bless this man - and he got out the dead baby. She later delivered 4 healthy kittens. All found homes, including Mama who went to a friend of my mom.) 

The aforementioned evergreen-type trees? They’re dying. If I ever sell this house, I’m going to have them removed. Sparrows used to live in them, I thought, but I think the sparrows just lived in the trees around and not specifically in them, because..

They have nail strips in them. I didn’t realize it for years, until their branches started thinning. There are nail strips in my trees. I have no idea why, but I can’t imagine they were effective against keeping birds away because they used to be full, fluffy trees. Deep inside by the base of the tree are nails. I can’t figure out how to get them out. 

I want to *right* the wrongs that have been done here. I owe it. 

𝒩𝓎𝓍 ☆☽〇☾☆

Sunday, September 8, 2019

My little intro post

Hey there, I'm Moonchild!


Im an eclectic person, whether it be my faith, my music or pretty much anything else. I'm a stay at home single (ish) mom of a 4 year old daughter who I call Tiny Satan. She's not a bad kid, just precocious! She thinks she's the boss, and somehow has wittier comebacks than I do *eyeroll* but she's actually very compassionate, kind, intelligent and clever.

I'm a heart patient domestic and abuse survivor. I struggle with Anxiety, Depression, OCD and PTSD and I've developed a pretty warped sense of humor to deal with the fuckery that goes on in my life.

I love my coffee pot as if it were another child and when I get into a TV show, I get OBSESSED. (Looking at you Supernatural!) I love to cook and sometimes bake, but I don't mind good take out. The boyfriend and I have a bucket list of local small restaurants to try, including Puruvian and El Salvadoran. Food is life.

I'll probably be posting a lot about the things mentioned above and whatever else comes to mind. I'm not so great at introductions, but I do enjoy talking (just ask all of my teachers, ever).

With that said, welcome to Visions of Us!

Moonchild 🌖🌕🌔

Saturday, September 7, 2019

Be Here Now & The Kybalion

I am a HUGE fan of books. All books (except romance and the like, that shit's garbage). Horror books, crystal books, divination books, religious books, books on spirituality.  I buy many most of my books from ThriftBooks.com. Low prices, good to great quality, free shipping over $10! On their way to me are Be Here Now by Ram Dass and The Kybalion.

Do you have any books to recommend? 

Thursday, September 5, 2019

Anyolite, Selenite, & Labradorite

First let me clarify that while I'm fascinated by, believe in, and study (but not nearly enough) metaphysical things such as crystals, I keep a healthy level of skepticism.  I'm not going to come here and preach about the *powers* of anything that I don't (at least partially) believe in enough to continue to meddle in. In other words, I'm not going to lie to you or mislead anyone, and should I try something, or learn something, that I feel is untrue or has failed (in the case of spells, etc.) I will be honest about that. I believe in 100% transparency in my "religion" or "spirituality" or "path", whatever you choose to name it. We all learn by the failures or successes of others.

(Disclaimer here, just because it isn't my truth or has failed for me, doesn't mean it's not true or will fail for you. In fact, if you have a different experience or opinion, please share it with me. I'd love to hear it!) 

As I mentioned in my introduction post, I recently bought a book on crystals and have decided I'm going to have every crystal in it. What I didn't mention in my intro is that I also have a thing for lists and organization (although I'm embarrassingly bad at both). I don't yet have my crystals divided out or even all identified, but that is coming.

This is The Book I'm referring to.

My Crystal Bible

Along with this book, at the same time, I also purchased this little beauty.

Ruby in Zoisite

I'm not one of those people that typically *feels* the vibration or some shit of crystals, but I do on occasion feel drawn to them. I asked to see her from the glass case and when she was placed in my hand, in my head I heard myself say "ok, you're coming home" as if I had been spoken to and answered. I hated to even put her down to keep shopping! She is Ruby in Zoisite (or Anyolite). You can read about Ruby in Zoisite here. I don't usually choose crystals based on what they are carved into, but I also collect skulls, so she was perfect. The shop I found her in also had several other crystal skulls, but she was the only one that was a natural stone as opposed to man-made. Natural is always my top choice.

"Ruby in Zoisite offers the energy of happiness, appreciation, abundance, vitality and growth. It stimulates the heart and helps one to open to divine love. Zoisite helps to alleviate grief, anger, despair and defeat, and it is a powerful stone for deep healing by activating the body’s defences and healing mechanisms.  It is an energising healer on a physical level and is helpful for restoring vitality after radiation, chemotherapy or pharmaceutical treatments.

Healing: helps to alleviate grief, anger, despair and defeat, and it is a powerful stone for deep healing by activating the body's defences and healing mechanisms
Chakras: Base, Heart, Third eye"

And these beautiful little Labradorite hearts.

Labradorite

I'm a sucker for pretty.  

"Labradorite is a highly mystical and protective stone, it works on all areas of the mind and body increasing energy and clarifying thought processes. It is known as the bringer of light and is excellent for meditation, directing energies with more intensity allowing you to connect to your high self and seek out our spiritual purpose. Helps clear and protect your aura. Labradorite stimulates intuition, raising the consciousness and connecting to the universal energy. It is a stone of transformation, reflection and showing true intensions.

Healing: Balances hormones, lowers blood pressure and helps with disorders of the eyes and brain. Helps treats colds.
Chakras: Heart, Third Eye & Crown"


You can read about Labradorite here.

I also don't usually see crystals on Facebook and think I need them either, but I saw these Selenite wands being offered for only the cost of shipping and decided they needed to be with me as well. I ordered from Healing Wands without much expectation (because you know, Facebook and "free") and was pleasantly surprised.

Selenite Wands
"Selenite enhances clarity of the mind and concentration, expanding ones awareness of the self and of ones surroundings and having a positive effect on the brain. It soothes the nerves and enhances willpower. It enhances clarity of the mind and concentration, expanding ones awareness of the self and of ones surroundings and having a positive effect on the brain. It soothes the nerves and enhances willpower.

Healing: Protective, shields a person or space from outside influences
Chakras: Crown & Third Eye"

You can read about Selenite here.

As I get my crystals organized, I'll be posting more about them here. In the meantime, if you have opinions, advice, or just want to talk, we're here!

𝒩𝓎𝓍 ☆☽〇☾☆


Wednesday, August 28, 2019

Aegis Intro.

Hey y'all, I'm Aegis, and this is my introduction to this blog.
I've been thinking what to put in here that would describe me the best...so here it goes.
I'm 32 years old. I was born in Argentina. I came to the States 6 years ago this next September. I first came to this country as an Au Pair (is like a live in nanny job with a student visa).
I was born into a catholic family and after my mom died I was lost in what to believe. I searched many paths until I found paganism. I consider myself wiccan, never practiced too much, never felt at home to actively do so, so in a way I'm still in my "learning process".
I have met lots of people in my years here, a handful have made an impression enough in my soul that for better or for worse I will forever be thankful that the universe had put them in my life.
I suffer with depression, I have been in the literal edge of suicide, I have overcome it may times but still battling with those thoughts. Is not easy but having people around me, most of the times, it has helped me to keep fighting.
I love and respect all animals, I feel guilty and hypocrite when it comes to my eating habits, can't help it but I try the most to pay forward to other areas when I do. (Sorry!)
I have a passion for arts, dancing and drawing was always my strong suit.
I'm a sucker and a dreamer about the idea of LOVE but I have never come to my senses on self love, is a hard task for me to do so, most of the times I feel the need of other for reassurance on this topic, but most of the times I can't see what they see.
I'm very crafty, I crochet as a hobby, I'm pretty good at it. Every time I find that someone is worthy in my life they will receive a handmade item from me! Lol.
I love to give, sometimes I give too much to the wrong people, but it makes me feel better either way that I did something for someone, even tho they might not deserve it.
I'm a strong believer that if you do good deed good karma will come your way! That's my moto and I live by it. It has gave me great deal of grief. This has backfire on me so many times but I don't hold grudges, I will continue being kind and giving to other when they need my help without expecting anything in change.
Friendships and amorous relationships hadn't been the greatest of my experiences in the past year, but the year is not over yet and I will receive with open arms anything that is coming my way.
I'm an overthinker. Yes, I know, toxic trait....I'm working on it! Same as apologizing too much, people has pointed this to me several times, but I can't help it! I'm sorry!
I'm a Leo, I don't honor my sign by far, I think my moon sign is stronger than my sun sign...which explains why I'm the way I am.
I was invited to create this blog. We will talk about random topics. From me you may read mostly about experiences with the paranormal, weird dreams that I might some insight, stories, mostly horror, that I have written in the past and never had a audience to read them, and share some of the pagan path that I'm continuously learning about each day so we can all learn from it!
So I welcome y'all to this very random, but very accepting blog.
I welcome y'all to VISON OF US!
P.S.: if I have any gramatical errors, note that English is not my first language and it has been quite a while that I haven't written this much in English.

Tuesday, August 27, 2019

Introduction to Nyxon


So, hi. 

New blog, so I’m going to jump right in. 

A little bit about me. I am eclectic Pagan, nocturnal, and I love animals more than people. I dabble in astrology, Tarot, sigils, numerology, and palmistry. I recently bought a huge book on crystals and I have decided to find every one in the book to add to my already not too shabby collection. I’m a Level II Reiki practitioner, but haven’t “practiced” lately, and my heart runs my life as an “empath”. I don’t disbelieve in anything (and this includes the Loch Ness Monster, ask me about my theory on her/him sometime!), and while I believe all religions are equal and valid it doesn’t stop me from making fun of them because most of them are so egotistical. I’d rather be outside in nature than inside, because, well, Mother Nature. I’m into botany, the Moon, bones (ethically sourced, of course) and Goddess Hecate. I collect religious paraphernalia (think crosses and voodoo dolls), dragons, and skulls. I’m vegan. I love horror, jewelry, shiny things, trees, I’m an avid reader (ask me about horror books and movies!) and I have body piercings and tattoos. I mention I’m eclectic?

What you’ll most likely see from me here are witchcraft, crystals, and The Occult. But I make no promises to limit myself to that. I’m tired of path/religious judgment and censorship found in Facebook groups; it’s time to branch out on my own.  I’m pretty approachable, so feel free to ask me anything, or offer advice as I love to learn new shit! 

I know this blog is but a mere idea right now, but I’d like to see it take off. 

Welcome to Visions of Us.

𝒩𝓎𝓍 ☆☽〇☾☆